I don’t know if its part of getting old or its just life but everything in my life is hella dramatic. I even feel dramatic seating in my room at this time of the day writing about this; arrgh.
A little about my life: I’m trying to launch a natural skin care brand, finishing my five year degree (freaking out), my personal relationships are taking turns in directions that are unexpected and them inner battles; honestly giving me heartache every time it enters my mind.
In this very moment I have never felt so strongly about needing God’s help in the direction I should take. A few days back I realised how much I wanted to ask God about the plans he has for my life at this point; especially in respect to my degree. (1) because I’m freaking out and (2) there is so much doubt and fear in the the fibre of my beings at this time of my life. And, I honestly feel pressured to secure a job before my gratulation. I have already had a hard time completely my degree when in the second year of the degree I almost changed career path after realising that Law would not take me in the path I wanted to be in.
10:52 pm, Sydney
long story short:
I continued and I’m glad I did it.
Now that I’m almost done! the second biggest challenge of my career is knocking on my door and I don’t know how I’m going to handle it. So, I knocked on heaven’s door and God is helping me draw close to him in order to hear his voice clearer.
The plan is simple: Read every single day for 30 days and spend more time with God. Further, complete the short mini goal for July.
Mind that I have started writing this journal five days ago and as you can tell by the lack of progress i’m not doing so well. By God’s grace, I have yet to miss a reading. However, I’m already behind with the plans for July ( yes! I know its still June).
But here is what I have learned so far….
If Christ in a time I have sinned to the fullest without remorse in my life was able to walk to the Cross for me, how much more will he do it for me in my time of remorse? So, basically, this was based on my reading in Romans 8:31-37. This passage really spoke to me. It taught me that if Christ would do for me what he has done in a time where I didn’t even know or cared; what will he do for me now? The passage goes on to state that ‘if God is for us, who can be against us?’ So, as you can see, there is no one against me! And, my fear as beautiful and powerful as they may seem, It’s nothing but a block of stone. Nothing compare to the God I serve!
Warning* Please remember this is me documenting my experience and it might differ from your experience but do not feel discourage! God is all about relationship.
Let me know if you want to take the challenge with me 🙂 And, I will try to write as often as possible about my ups and downs in this 30 days. Also, maybe you guys can hold me accountable when I don’t.