Are you in the middle of life crisis? like nothing is working? the more you try the more it goes wrong? like you are trying to pursuit God but it seems like his nowhere to be found? Well, that makes two of us.
I had a life crisis a few days ago and I’m still processing it. I was stack in this little cycle where every night I would pray to God to keep me alive so that I can get right with him. However, as the blessing of another day was poured into my life I would become super occupied and forget about the painful conversation I had with God during the night.
‘ I was aware that once I die, it’s too late for me. I was afraid of not taking responsibility for my mistake. I knew if something were to happen to me during those nights I would have lost the chance to make it right for my soul’s sake. Thus, I continued to pursuit in spit of all the wrong I was tormenting my soul by participating in.’
During this period, I cannot help but compare myself with a new-born baby. I was in such a state that I needed God to pick me up and clean the area around me. And, this reminded me of a preaching I heard long time ago where the preacher compared us to a new born baby. He explained that sometime we get ourselves in big stinky mess where only an extremely loving father would want to clean us.
And, That was what I needed. I was in the mist of stinky pooh and needed an extremely strong and gracious God to help me. So, I did the only thing I knew how to do; I prayed. I honestly did not care whether I was doing it right or not. All I knew was I needed a miracle and fast.
Although, it did not come overnight I knew if I just held on longer enough it will eventually come. Thus, I waited.
Lesson: As best said by Martin Luther king,” if you can’t fly, then run, if you can’t run, then walk, if you can walk, than crawl, but whatever you do, you have to keep moving.” This is also true in our walk with God, if you can’t read the bible, you pray, if you can’t pray, you do whatever to keep you moving forward. God seeing that you are trying is enough for a miracle.
I realised as I’m writing this today, the reason God did not rush to my rescue was not because he couldn’t but rather he was waiting on me. Although, I was spinning out of control and desire with every fibre of my being for God to help me I was not ready to give up a part of me that was causing me so much pain. Hence, he waited for me to be still.
Moreover, it occurred to me that God desires to move me from where I was. He has heard my prayer and seen my struggle. However, like an inpatient baby I was preventing him by moving around too much. Thus, it was difficult for him to Pick me up and move me away from the mess I was making. He was waiting for me to be still and allow him to work in me.
As believer we all make this mistake. We ask God to help us and give him three minutes and if nothing happens in that three minutes, we start to do it ourselves. However, we need to learn to trust God’s timing. And, Just because it’s not evident in the physical world doesn’t mean its not happening in the spiritual world.
(1) whatever you do, don’t stop pursuing God.
(3) be still and know that he is ‘ALWAYS’ with you.
(3) God desire and will move you from where you are, be patient.
Verse to help us:
” The LORD has looked down from heaven upon the sons of men to see if there are any who understand, who seek after God.” Psalm 14:2
“Seek the LORD while he may be found; Call upon him while he is near.” Isaiah 55:6-7
“But from there you will seek the LORD your God, and you will find him if you search for him with all your hear and all your soul” Deuteronomy 4:29-31
GOD WILL FIGHT FOR YOU IF YOU JUST LET HIM, FIND OUT HOW NEXT WEDNESDAY 🙂